Chapter Ten
Morning.
Jetta raised her head lazily from
the pillow, glancing across at the clock and then groaning. Ten thirty.
Three hours and they had
to be at the airport to catch their
respective flights...the last thing she felt like doing was getting up.
It had been past midnight when
they
had gotten back to the hotel to order champagne and celebrate. It had
been
a large bottle,
and, on top of the wine they had
both already consumed at dinner, they had both been more than a little
merry by the time they
were through. How they had gotten
to bed was a mystery to her, and judging by the mess of clothes around
the floor they had
done anything but go straight to
sleep. She closed her eyes, burying her head back in the pillow. The
plane
could wait. She
needed to sleep in.
As she settled herself down more
comfortably below the duvet, she became aware of something cold and
hard
on her left hand,
and she pulled her arm up before
her gaze, confused. As she laid eyes on the slim gold band that
encircled
her fourth finger,
shards of memory began to return
to her, and a feeling of cold dread entered her heart.
Oh God...what had she done?
She turned over, looking for
Justin,
but he was already up and from the sound of it, in the shower. She
cursed
inwardly, sliding
the ring off her finger and
examining
it closely, then pushing it back on again. On the inside had been
roughly
engraved two
Js...one for Jetta and one for
Justin,
she assumed. She groaned. It got worse. What had she been thinking?
Sure,
she cared
about Justin...but did she want
to marry him?
Well, too late to wonder about it
now, she realised, as the ensuite door opened to reveal Justin and
towel.
She'd already done
it...and the ring was proof of the
fact.
"Morning." Justin cast her a smile, opening the wardrobe and rummaging inside for something to wear. "Sleep good?"
"I dunno." Jetta admitted. "'Ow can you be so chirpy?"
"I'm not...I'm running on adrenalin, I think." Justin laughed. "Hangover?"
"Guess so." Jetta nodded. "Justin...what did we do last night? I mean..." She produced her left hand. "Did we...?"
"Well, my memory's a little hazy about last night, but I'm pretty sure we did." Justin nodded his head. "And if you've any doubts about it, there's the picture they gave us as a memento on the dresser."
"Ugh." Jetta closed her eyes. "We did."
"What's wrong?" Justin came to sit on the bed. "You having cold feet this morning?"
"I...guess maybe a little." Jetta said slowly. Justin frowned.
"Guess I should've known that'd
happen."
He admitted quietly. "With your track record in commitment...but I
really
thought last
night that you were behind the idea."
"I don't remember enough of last night to know." Jetta confessed. "What were we drinkin'?"
"Champagne, I think." Justin replied, indicating the empty bottle. "We were celebrating."
There was a slight edge to his voice, and Jetta frowned.
"Don't come all snarky with me."
She warned. "I'm jus' tryin' to work out what exactly happened last
night,
and what madness
possessed me to marry you!"
"Oh, I see, it's like that." Justin's expression was pained. "I'm sorry you feel that way, Jetta...I did think you were a little more sincere than that...last night you seemed sincere. Whatever else I don't remember, that I do."
"Maybe you dreamed that part."
"Fine. Be that way, then." Justin chewed on his lip, then turned his attention back to his clothing.
"Oh, 'ell, Justin, that didn't
come
out right." Jetta cursed. "Listen, I got a stinkin' 'eadache an' I
can't
think straight right now. I
didn't mean it like that."
"Well, how did you mean it?" Justin demanded. "You have to stop messing me around, Jetta! Either you're in this or you're not."
"I..."
"I'm going to get dressed, then
I'm
getting a car to the airport." Justin continued. "If you're up, you can
come too...we both need
a time out on this one to think
things through. We can discuss it when I get back to California."
"Whatever." Jetta replied
tiredly,
pulling back the duvet and slipping out of bed. "It's gonna take me
that
time just to come to
terms with what I've done."
"Thanks a whole lot, Jetta."
Justin
sounded hurt. "Perhaps it would've been better if we'd never come
here...I
should've known
something would go wrong."
With that he disappeared back into the bathroom with his clothes, leaving Jetta to dress in the bedroom proper.
She did so, her heart heavy, and
her temper awoken by his remarks. The journey to the airport proved
strained
and silent, and
inwardly Jetta was glad to see him
leave. They could discuss it when he got back...but not now.
Now she had a flight to catch, and a band to rejoin.
Justin could wait.
* * * * * * * *
"You look beat."
Pizzazz eyed her bandmate with a
critical air, frowning at what she saw. "What happened, flights mess up
or something? You
can't be jetlagged from Vegas to
here, surely!"
"No, I ain't." Jetta agreed,
lifting
her case and following the singer into the big Gabor estate. "I'm
'ungover.
We drank rather
more than we should've last night
an' I'm payin' for it, that's all."
"Ah, that'd do it." Pizzazz smirked. "So, how was your week in lover's paradise, then?"
There was an edge to her tone, and Jetta frowned.
"Put a sock in it, will you?" she
muttered. "I got a killer 'eadache and I don't need your teasin'. It
was
a good week, okay? Just
a pain to be back at work, that's
all."
She glanced down at her left hand
surrepticiously as she spoke, glad that the long black gloves she had
elected
to wear neatly
covered her ring finger from view.
She had decided on the plane that it wouldn't do to tell anyone what
had
happened in Vegas.
Let them find out when she had come
to terms with it herself...and the way she felt right then, that could
be a long way off.
And yet, despite the confusion in her feelings, she had not been able to bring herself to remove the ring from her finger. To do so would almost be admitting that she was willing to forgo Justin completely...and somehow she had not managed to find that conviction inside of her. Angry as she was, and convinced that somehow she had been coerced, the thought of letting go completely made her uncomfortable.
She headed into the house and up
the stairs, dumping her case in her room and dropping down on the bed,
closing her eyes. It
would be better when she'd slept
off the hangover, she decided. Then she could think clearly and
rationally
what to do.
The ring felt strange on her
finger,
like she was more than conscious it was there, and it unnerved her to
feel
it. She was Sheila
Burns no longer, but Sheila
Pelligrini...Hell,
Roxy was her sister-in-law!
"This is doin' me 'ead in." She sat up with a sigh. "I'll never sleep at this rate."
She glanced at the phone,
reaching
out for the receiver to call him, but then thinking better of it. Best
they didn't speak for a day
or two, let the dust settle.
She hated being at odds with him,
though. It weighed heavily on her heart and made her feel all the worse
for the morning's
fight.
"You're early back." A voice came
from the doorway and Jetta glanced up to see Stormer watching her. She
mustered a faint
smile.
"Flight wasn't so bad." She said with a shrug.
"You look pale."
"Hangover. Don't ask." Jetta dismissed it with a careless wave of her hand. "What's been goin' on since I went away, then?"
"Not a lot." Stormer admitted. "I
went to DC, spent a couple of days with Elliot. It was...nice."
"Jus' nice?"
"Yes." Stormer pinkened slightly. "But in a good way. What about you? Tell me about Vegas...you guys must've had the best time!"
"It was...interestin'." Jetta said slowly. Stormer frowned.
"What's wrong?" She asked.
"We 'ad a fight this mornin'." Jetta admitted. "An' we 'aven't made it up yet."
"Oh!" Stormer looked startled. "But I'm sure you will...was it a big fight?"
"Kind of." Jetta agreed. "I mean, it weren't lots of yellin' and stuff, but it was...a big deal fight."
"You want to talk about it?"
"Not really, but I don't think I
can not talk about it, either." Jetta responded darkly. "It's messed me
up, Stormer. I 'ate feelin' so
wretched over a dumb bloke! I've
always been so damn independant an' now look at me! Tangled up with
some
guy for God
knows what reason! I tell you
something
- if there is anyone up there, playin' with our lives, they're 'avin' a
bloody joke with me on this one."
"It's only natural to feel bad when you fight with someone you're close to."
"Yeah, well, even that sucks sometimes." Jetta groaned. "Being close to someone...it's only an inch from trusting them and then where are you? I always knew there was a reason I didn't get involved in datin' stuff, an' this is it. I wanna sleep off me 'eadache but I can't cos everytime I close my eyes he's buttin' into my 'ead!"
"What did you fight about?"
Stormer
asked gently. Jetta frowned. Then slowly she removed her left glove,
stretching
her hand
out on the duvet cover. Stormer's
hand flew to her mouth.
"Jetta!" She exclaimed. "You got married?"
"Shh!" Jetta hushed her companion
hurriedly, moving to close the door. "I don't want everyone to 'ear
you,
least of all Roxy
right now! Yes, we did."
"But..." Stormer's eyes were huge
as she digested her friend's words. "I don't believe it. You got
married?
You...eloped? You never said a word!"
"I didn't know anything about it
until
last night, when Romeo sprung it on me." Jetta said darkly. "Believe
me,
I didn't go to Vegas with this in mind. It wasn't an elopement. It was
someone bein' damn opportunistic an' takin' 'is chance while 'e thought
'e was in there."
"So why the fight?"
"I...wimped out, I guess." Jetta
sighed, sinking down onto the bed. "I don't know why I did it, to be
honest
- I know I wasn't
drunk, because that came after we'd
been down the chapel an' done the deed. It was last night, we'd 'ad a
good
night at the
casino an' a nice meal an' I dunno,
it just seemed like it was right for us, you know? So we did it...an'
this
morning it scared the
'ell out of me when I remembered."
"Oh, I see." Stormer frowned, then, "Poor Justin."
"Poor Justin?" Jetta stared. "What do you mean, poor Justin? He got what he wanted...it's me who's messed up, not him!"
"But he's mad about you." Stormer said quietly. "You can't tell me you don't know that. It must've hurt his feelings pretty bad this morning."
"I know it did." Jetta admitted. "But I was confused, I didn't know what to do or say! I mean, I like Justin, sure. We 'ang out an' we 'ave a good time. But marriage? I ain't the marryin' type for a start! We want so many different things - 'e wants a family an' there's nothin' further from my mind than stupid brats after what I saw Pizzazz go through with you know who. What did you expect me to do?"
"You should never have said I do, then, if you felt that way." Stormer said at length.
"Bit late to tell me that now."
Jetta
said bitterly. "I think I jus' got involved in the crazy mood of the
place...by
this mornin' it had
worn off. I didn't mean to upset
'im, but I kinda panicked."
"So what are you going to do?"
"Wish I knew." Jetta glanced down
at her ring, then picked up her glove and put it back on. "For the time
bein', nowt. Noone
need know about it, Stormer...you
got that? At least not till 'e's back from Michigan an' we can discuss
it proper, like."
"All right, I won't tell anyone." Stormer agreed. "And to be honest, Jetta, I don't think it's that big a tragedy. Justin's not the worst guy in the world and you do have a connection. Perhaps if you give this a chance you'll surprise yourself."
"Fat chance of that." Jetta
grimaced.
"I wish I'd never gotten into a relationship, they're more trouble than
they're worth!"